6.3.07 &
Giving up on Hope
Dont ya feel something shaky today?
B'cuz apparently there was some tremors
at some parts of S'pore and of course
my workplace as not an exeption as well...
This week was one hell of a busy week
for me cuz' I be going headquarters
from Tuesday to Friday for my
modular training cum attachment...
Was back at Woodlands branch yesterday
and it was a nice feeling meeting up
all my old folks!
Thanks Wani darling for accompanying me after work.
Thanks Carmen for the 'Meruku' that she bought
for me all the way from Melaka..
And of course, thanks especially to Jiesi for
all the nice and sweet things that you have done for me!
I love you, all.
Love.
sigh.
Will be meeting the girls tomorrow for a movie or something
Ain will be totally free these three days
So, will be meeting her in town and
hopefully the 'Kak Pah' cum Sharifah
will be joining us...
Friday.
9th March 2007.
Colleagues at headquarter are asking
me to join them for dinner at seoul garden
We gonna have a spread cum celebration
for pay rise...[Ooooops!]
Shockingly, there seems to be bonus for
all of us....But of course, mine will be
pro-rated [As usual!]
Saturday.
10th March 2007.
Will be watching Follow the Law with
Jiesi and most probably
Susan and Harry.
Dont really wanna spend sooo much money
this week but somehow, I just feel
like having fun, fun, fun all week!
Gonna let my hair loose cuz work
has been really stressed this week...
I can see in his eyes that we are finally
coming to an end.
The words that came out from his mouth.
The insults that I received.
I guess both of us are tired of
playing hide-and-seek...
We have come to the point
where nothing can ever solve our problems..
We have gone through alot of ups as
well alot of downs....
And everytime, i always asked for it to end...
and we know that each time I said that
we will always end up again together..
But, I guess now we have come to the point..
that there is never US again.
Perhaps, its wrong for me to keep saying
'breaking up' when I dont mean it...
But, somehow yesterday, I was really hurt
with what he actually said
and suddenly it hits me that
perhaps we are just not meant for each other..
Why do we have to pretend that we're in love..
when all we could do is fight.
Love hurts.
It just hurts so much.
I wonder why fools fall in love.
when it can just be a hurting thing....
Why do people put in so much effort
but in the end, it just went down the drain...
What the hell is true love?
If you can never know whether its really
true or is it just an illusion?
Why do you show me what is happiness
and then just bring me really down the
next minute?
Now, dont all of you agree that
Love is such a cruel cruel thing?
Why do you gave me hope
and then, killing it?
I know. He will never read his entry.
Why will he bother?
Why will he even care?
He made it so clear to me.
He want to be out as well.
I could see it all from his eyes.
I dont blame him.
Perhaps its time for us to move on.
Dont.
Even bother to remember me in your
memories.
Cuz Im trying to erase bit by bit
all your memories in my head...
I stop having hope that we'll
ever be together again.
I mean whats the point if we end
up fighting every single meeting we had.
Happiness was all in the past.
This time round, Im leaving it all
to Fate and all I could
do is to pray to God to make me strong..
Insyallah, my troubles will fade away
and I wish you all the best in your life...
